Unwind Your Mind: Navigating Life’s Stressful Seas.

Good morning to you all.. I’m sitting here on my couch when I know I should be doing so much, so much for the launch of my small business, just anything really. But, I don’t know if I am just feeling a little extra lonely today, missing home, missing my kids, missing my friends, feeling defeated, or just that tired mentally and emotionally. I woke up this morning with only 3.5 hours of sleep and for a brief moment I felt very energized, ready to tackle all that needs to be completed. And then it all went away.

I have the best housekeeper I could’ve found while being here, she is kind, sweet, and knows that I am a very OCD kind of person and so far I haven’t had to re-do much of what she does. So the household choirs I don’t have to worry about, she even does my laundry. And we all know I hate laundry. I have all the time in the world to work on my website, my candles, and all the wonders of the other gifts I have to offer, I just can’t find the energy to do it. Maybe I have the fear that no one will find them as beautiful or interesting as I do and then I feel all the hard work will have been for nothing. I know I can’t think that way and I need to put my entire soul into this and believe in them so others will, and I am trying to, I truly am. I spent all week making candles to cure so that I am able to post them and share them with everyone. Shouldn’t be too much longer before I can launch all the goodies. And the anxiety of that itself is so overwhelming. And can we just talk about Shopify for a second! Why does it have to be so difficult to set things up? I pull so much of my hair out while trying to set it up. But, I think I kind of figured it out. I posted a budget journal that I had done awhile back, added some to it, and changed a few things. I have been using that for over a year, actually two per month, because I have two different countries I keep a budget for. Using my journal I have been able to save money on both sides of the world. My two daughters even use it (maybe not as religiously as I do) and it is a wonderful tool to be able to visually see all money going in and going out. I had my first sale on the new website for the journal, and even though the review I got was that it made it very clear that the buyer didn’t have the money they thought they had, they were so greatful that they purchased it. The buyer stated they would be able to allocate money in different ways and were able to visualize where it went and could make changes where needed. That made me happy to know that it would help someone the way it helped me.

The purpose of my Budget Journal started because I was moving across the world and my daughters were staying in the States and I needed to know that they knew the importance of making sure all their bills were paid on time and they were also saving money. I also needed to save money. But, I knew that I still had responsibilities in America and would acquire other financial responsibilities over here so I needed something to visually see what was what and where was where. I wanted to be a good example for the girls and if they seen I was using it and being financially smart, they would do the same. And I was right!

The weather here is so insanely hot that I compare it to when I lived up north. No, not the cold, but when winter came and it was -50 with the windchill, you stay inside. So its like I am forced to stay inside because of the heat that they even closed the beaches, boat rental, jet ski rental, and all activities outdoors. I am a very outdoors kinda girl and I can’t even go hike the mountains. I tried to walk on the beach last weekend and the sand was so hot that I thought the bottom of my feet were going to melt. And I have been told it is only going to get worse. Joy! So I need to get my emotions together and learn to live indoors for the next 3 months. That is why I decided to start my business. That is why I decided to share all of my creativity and tricks and goodies with you all, keep me busy throughout these scorching months.

I will get over this funk I am in and get my butt into gear. I promise you that..

I think I just need to sit for an hour or two and then just do it, get my butt moving and get all the beautiful goodies moving and posted so I can launch my site. If I could only figure out Shopify and get these darn labels to print, I would be good, ok better!

I ordered a lot of glitter from my favorite glitter queen and some tools that the king of the shop 3D printed. I love to help support small businesses, and all the goodies I bought will only help me and my small business. So I am excited for them to come in. As soon as all of that comes in I will be able to do more of the glittered pens and all things sparkly. Starting some things over from scratch is hard, expensive, and overwhelming to say the least. And not only did I start my life over, I am starting my business over and I think that is where some of the doubt in myself is coming from. I will figure out a way to get passed the doubt, I always do..

The stress of a new country, new home, new life, new job, and now adding on a new business is a lot. I am going to take it one day at a time. Enjoy the moments I have while I have them, experiences I have while they are there, and the stress will hopefully work itself out for the best all in good time. I am thankful that you all read my rants and for those of you that email me with positive comments, questions, and advice, just know I appreciate them more than you could imagine.

Until next time!

Xoxo

Heather